i solumnly swear that i am up to no good

Highlight so far: Tina thinking this was “marijuana” juice because of the leaf. Yes, I am blazin’ right now. 😘💨🍁 #pureleaf #thebest #nectarofholythings #NotHigh

Highlight so far: Tina thinking this was “marijuana” juice because of the leaf. Yes, I am blazin’ right now. 😘💨🍁 #pureleaf #thebest #nectarofholythings #NotHigh

You ask, “What am I looking at?” That. That is Mexico sand, still stuck on my flip flop. This is what sadness looks like… 🌴 #mexico2014 #takemebackthursday #awh @ajhilton @shecme @msliss72 @courtface6

You ask, “What am I looking at?” That. That is Mexico sand, still stuck on my flip flop. This is what sadness looks like… 🌴 #mexico2014 #takemebackthursday #awh @ajhilton @shecme @msliss72 @courtface6

because bears // #bears #1950s #benice #becauseyoucan #meanpeople #iMeanThatBabyBear #sqwee

because bears // #bears #1950s #benice #becauseyoucan #meanpeople #iMeanThatBabyBear #sqwee

So this pretty much sums up our friendship… @gaggy_ doing something productive….& me. Doing whatever the hell I’m doing… #crosseyed #punkininmyhair #flashbackfriday 😜

So this pretty much sums up our friendship… @gaggy_ doing something productive….& me. Doing whatever the hell I’m doing… #crosseyed #punkininmyhair #flashbackfriday 😜

Yesterday

Had the first panic attack I’ve had in eight years.
The feeling of suffocation terrifies me.
It happened at work.
Out of the blue.
No reason.
I just. Couldn’t. Breathe.
My boss had to sedate me.
My boyfriend. Thinks I’m crazy.
I woke up even more terrified.
Something’s wrong with me.
& my brain.
He probably doesn’t love me after that.
After all, anxiety isn’t a real thing.
Depression isn’t a real thing.
The IV puncture in my arm hurts like a bitch today.
I don’t wanna go home.